Honestly, Its hard to stop...
Running that is.
Because I know I can win this way.
I know I fool them...
Because I'm doing it.
With the right words and tones...
I can fast for days at a time.
Without purging, I can win the battle... The battle for diet control. But in doing so I would only be contributing to the war... my war against myself. You see this has gone to far... A little bit of lying to yourself - sure, everyone does it. But not to this degree... I'm tired of being a shell of myself. I'm sick of standing on the sidelines of my own life. I hate knowing what I want but habitually denying myself the pleasure. This habitual sin has got to stop.
sin. what a word.
I'm sinning, against God, and against myself.
So to conclude - I'm starting a new blog...
And ending this struggle for perfection.
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peace.
