post #251
we had chinese today
my fortune was the best
woo hoo

my eyes, theyre incredibly dry
i went to the eye doctor
he prescribed special drops

he jokingly said i need to cry more
but it got me thinking about it
i cant remember the last time i cried

tears are important
apparently

i dont think ive ever been this upset with one of my friends. seriously... i mean, i've been upset about them, or mad at them, ticked off occasionally... but not like, this frustrated with them

but chelsea, i mean... i cant empathize with her if she's just going to keep dating him. he's a jerk. we've covered that already. hes controlling, jealous, and possessive, oh yeah.. witnessed that.

then why, tell me why, after all her crying,
after her "im never doing this again"

i just dont understand.
she knows shes wrong
she'll probably get hurt
but i cant do it anymore

i guess maybe, hopefully,
she'll learn from her past mistakes, this time.

i talked to patrick today
like sat down and talk to him
i felt guilty for not doing so

he's not bad, a little frazzled
but, it couldve been an off day
it is monday...

it was like...
first he'd just be talking about the lights, or the paint color..
then the next second he'd be all deep and in thought
then he'd break the flow of the conversation to complement me

but, he doesnt really, know me?
it's like, a plagiarized complement


but overall... he's nice

i darkened my hair this morning,
after that, i straightened it
and then it rained... urg


im painting my walls,
ive got it taped off...
just have to pick some colors

ive been puppysitting,
my parents wouldn't let me keep juno
her sister's kinda cute too though...


im addicted to dark raisinets,
and i haven't had coffee in over a month

i kind of want a job...
i need to get out of the house

my mac hard drive failed,
good thing i had a warranty
note to self: buy backup drive

im on tech a lot
i quit going to youth

i never thought i would consider going to another youth group
evangel temple is my church, its where i thought i'd stay

lately im not so sure

two weeks since last post...
ive got to update

im moving..
almost moved
then i'll have time...

is my stomach ache is getting worse...?
when you get sick youre supposed to get better
instead, i now have a killer headache to go with it

my stomach hurts
ive been trying the vegan thing
no animal meat/by-products

at the same time i started that,
i also eliminated coffee, caffeine, and refined sugar
ive been trying to eat anything else in its simplest form
organic when i can... it's expensive

anyway, i've felt great for the last 3 days
but today, my stomach feels horrible

idk


but the coffee thing is messin me up
i mean, every time i pass starbucks,
or walk past the coffee maker
it kills me, lol


summer:
i havent spent time with my friends in forever.. and honestly, yeah sure, i miss them... but ive been enjoying my break. when they're off doing whatever i dont ever feel required to do things i dont want to do. yeah, im starting to miss them... but, im just saying that my summer alone hasnt been half bad. now, if only it wasn't so hot...

babysitting:
i dont think i'll do it again. i love these kids, just not all day. in their defense... i dont think i could handle anyones kids all day all week... oh, and kristi went up to a $100 dollars. 100 dollars just to pick them up from school, give 'em a snack, and make sure they do their homework. like i said, i haven't given her an answer...
but i think its a no.

brusters:
myra said she'd love to have me come back... and she laughed when she heard i was tired of children. its great to have a backup and also, it nice to know that someone likes me. but i dont think i'll be going in that direction. if i can help it anyway. i need to do decide on somewhere else and turn in some applications,
the summer has gone by so fast.

starbucks:
apparently dont want to hire me
id love to work there... but hey,
what can you do, ya know?