grant i need to sit in your office
i need to talk and sort things out
i need to talk to someone who knows me
i cannot stand introducing myself.. i cant stand the fact that no one knows my story, no knows where ive come from - and what ive been through to get here... i need confirmation on some things... and and im just. im..
and i just, im at the weirdest place of being completely secure in God's will - and being homesick. im slowly coming to the realization that even if i could come home for the weekend... even if i could go skateboarding with connor, or smoke a cigar with caleb - i wouldn't be happy. i wouldn't feel the fulfillment i feel right now. im trying to align my desire with God's... i want so bad to be lost in Him to the point of not caring what i leave behind or where i go...
God is showing me so many new things about myself, and about His character. i love Him grant, and i'll get rid of anything that could possibly hinder me from getting to know Him or His plan for me... g.. God is testing me in the area of loving people - and trusting Him with everything and everyone i care about...
i trust Him grant, i do...
im crying
i need to talk and sort things out
i need to talk to someone who knows me
i cannot stand introducing myself.. i cant stand the fact that no one knows my story, no knows where ive come from - and what ive been through to get here... i need confirmation on some things... and and im just. im..
and i just, im at the weirdest place of being completely secure in God's will - and being homesick. im slowly coming to the realization that even if i could come home for the weekend... even if i could go skateboarding with connor, or smoke a cigar with caleb - i wouldn't be happy. i wouldn't feel the fulfillment i feel right now. im trying to align my desire with God's... i want so bad to be lost in Him to the point of not caring what i leave behind or where i go...
God is showing me so many new things about myself, and about His character. i love Him grant, and i'll get rid of anything that could possibly hinder me from getting to know Him or His plan for me... g.. God is testing me in the area of loving people - and trusting Him with everything and everyone i care about...
i trust Him grant, i do...
im crying
2 comments:
Checked my junk mail filter this morning...
Found your invite email from 2 weeks ago..
I like this post...
seems like the past year has been solid prep time for right now...i'm so excited to hear this stuff streaming out. oh, how far we've come.
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