I got a new song I really like today... I might actually practice it. (=
Awhile back PJ asked me to do a recital thing - I was set to tell him no. But I found out yesterday that it's something Trey's doing. Trey said I was wasting my talent and it would be good for me to do it. Pj says he thinks I would like it, - not to many people, not on a big stage etc. I want to do it. But idk if I can, idk if I can play w/out messing everything up. I don't want to let people down by not doing it. And I don't want to let them down by screwing it up.
I can't figure out how to "put myself in my music" make it an art -ya know? J says theres no emotion. Idk what to do. I can't even get the notes right half the time, much less add something to the notes. I feel like there's something missing, and as much as I want it to be there I want to keep it inside, to myself, safe -so to speak.
*deep breath*
I'm really going to try to learn some music this week.
'night.
.peace.
.:kaylin:.
Awhile back PJ asked me to do a recital thing - I was set to tell him no. But I found out yesterday that it's something Trey's doing. Trey said I was wasting my talent and it would be good for me to do it. Pj says he thinks I would like it, - not to many people, not on a big stage etc. I want to do it. But idk if I can, idk if I can play w/out messing everything up. I don't want to let people down by not doing it. And I don't want to let them down by screwing it up.
I can't figure out how to "put myself in my music" make it an art -ya know? J says theres no emotion. Idk what to do. I can't even get the notes right half the time, much less add something to the notes. I feel like there's something missing, and as much as I want it to be there I want to keep it inside, to myself, safe -so to speak.
*deep breath*
I'm really going to try to learn some music this week.
'night.
.peace.
.:kaylin:.
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