rock soda.

mk chris.

specifics.
hmmmmm..... lemme think.

*deep breath*

my friend lizzie is one of the most beautiful, nice, christian, talented, caring, wonderful people i know. - and she's never had a boyfriend.

when we were younger it never seemed to matter to her. she always thought 'well if i wait...' or 'maybe when i'm older' but the right guy//time was never really there. she knows that God wants her to be fully satisfied with him, and she's prayed about it... but when she looks around and everyone else has a guy to text, and hold hands and just, be a couple with, and have deep conversations, and goof off and say 'i love you' a billion times everyday. - it's hard.

i feel so awful for her and i want that for her because i feel like she deserves it... ya know?

but i can't do anything about it.

and now she says ""what if... what if God doesn't have someone out there for me? what if he wants me to be satisfied with him forever? what then? idk if i can do it, and that's sad because i say i want to be satisfied, but i don't. Kaylin, i guess the hard part's not waiting.... it's replacing physical with spiritual.""

excuse me if i don't have allot of experience in this area.


anyway, this has all been building for some time now... i knew it was coming, and then we all went to lindsey's house and went "swimming" and then watched "the notebook" - bad choice.

chelsea had never seen it before and she broke down at the end - she was crying sooo hard... she called david (her bf) and just sobbed over the phone (at 2am) "i wanna grow old with you.... i love you sooo much" etc etc.

lizzie was already upset - but that was really it right there.

and i don't know what to say to her. i'm lost. i look at her and she looks at me wanting some scrap of advice, words of wisdom, a fortune cookie, anything really.... and idk.

ugh.

peace.


ps - if uhh, you know me know me, don't go around telling people what you read ok kiddos?