I gave someone my blog url.... rather, I left it on their desk.
I don't know if they're reading it, or if they even have the little post-it. So, if you are reading this, welcome... only one other person has the url, which makes you pretty darn special.
Of course, you have to promise not to tell anyone about anything you read.
But it's weird, I want to go back through my blogs and delete a few...
But I wont. Sorry about the weird entry yesterday... I was a little out of it. haha.
I feel bad for my Dad... I know he's in pain, but he has no right to take it out on other people. And when he does it makes me mad, I can hardly have any sympathy for him lately. Tonight I literally thought I might die. My parents and I were on our way home and he kept falling asleep, he almost hit 2 trucks and he's like "You guys have to keep me up" so I started talking to him, and all of a sudden he goes off on this whole thing about me having an asinine attitude, and learning to keep my fat mouth shut. And the whole time my Mom was looking at him like he'd lost his mind.
So then she tried, she asked him something about tomorrow, and he went off on her. Well, neither one of us wanted to talk and he was getting madder and madder and the car was going faster and faster.... He almost hit a truck head-on, they beeped their horn though, and woke him up. Then he got mad again, and let down all the windows to "keep him awake" [personally I think it was just because he knows my Mom hates it]
Idk, he only gets that way when he's in pain though... I just wish, idk. I feel useless
peace.
I don't know if they're reading it, or if they even have the little post-it. So, if you are reading this, welcome... only one other person has the url, which makes you pretty darn special.
Of course, you have to promise not to tell anyone about anything you read.
But it's weird, I want to go back through my blogs and delete a few...
But I wont. Sorry about the weird entry yesterday... I was a little out of it. haha.
I feel bad for my Dad... I know he's in pain, but he has no right to take it out on other people. And when he does it makes me mad, I can hardly have any sympathy for him lately. Tonight I literally thought I might die. My parents and I were on our way home and he kept falling asleep, he almost hit 2 trucks and he's like "You guys have to keep me up" so I started talking to him, and all of a sudden he goes off on this whole thing about me having an asinine attitude, and learning to keep my fat mouth shut. And the whole time my Mom was looking at him like he'd lost his mind.
So then she tried, she asked him something about tomorrow, and he went off on her. Well, neither one of us wanted to talk and he was getting madder and madder and the car was going faster and faster.... He almost hit a truck head-on, they beeped their horn though, and woke him up. Then he got mad again, and let down all the windows to "keep him awake" [personally I think it was just because he knows my Mom hates it]
Idk, he only gets that way when he's in pain though... I just wish, idk. I feel useless
peace.
1 comment:
you are not useless...you can love him, pray for him and try to have patience....doesn't seem like much and yet it seems like too much...but you can do it and it will make all the difference in the world..maybe not immediately and maybe not ever in a way that you visibly see...but it will make a difference. I LOVE YOU ksTO!!! - Mama 'Chelle
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