cloud9.

i often contemplate driving, driving until i reach the skyline. to that place where the sky touches the earth. in a sense - the end, completion, a goal reached... i find myself wishing i didn't have to continue on this monotonous journey that seemingly leads to nowhere. its like im stuck in this repetitive state of mind, work school church... im tired of it. where does it end? when did it start? why did i end up here, in this life? what's my purpose in this place? and not only do i want to know the 'whys' in life, but i want to know the 'ifs'... i want to see other things, i want to know different mindsets. i want to be deep without sounding shallow. i want to learn to be humble. i want to know what it is to be real. i want to live without premeditated conversations, and foreseen events.

i want to be spontaneous,
without becoming unglued and disheveled...


[there's one word that means
"unglued and disheveled" and i cant think of it]
speaking of which, that is the definition of this post.