pulsating.

i need to update,
and even thought i need sleep more
...im here, typing away


let's categorize loves. :)



work:

i like working at the church, but i dont like getting paid for hours im not actually working... i want to know that i worked, like, actually worked that many hours. i dont mind being paid or hours that i was just "there" but i'll appreciate it more if i work.

kirby asked me last week if ron was looking for someone to work part-time, and since, honestly i didn't know... that's what i told her. ron told me tonight kirby has been hired to work w/ jason, grant, and ron. which is totally cool. in fact, i wouldn't mind if ron fired me... but alas, he says i haven't been cut and this shouldn't affct me in any way whatsoever. which i guess is cool.

however, this whole office thing is getting to me.
i can't do it. i just need a corner with an outlet.


"i would rather sit on a pumpkin and have it all to myself,
than be crowded on a velvet cushion -thoreau


i have fallen into an awful sort of like with the new starbucks...
i think i might marry it. i dropped off an application there,
brusters, and monkey joes (new concept for me... never thought about playing with kids to make money, could be fun) i need a summer job with more hours, and summer is fast approaching. :)


school:

i need to wrap it up
tie up my loose ends
so i can go to hchs
but im not going to
if my mom cant help me
and shes always working


friends:

foster: has a boyfriend and its weird. but too cute.
cronin: is distant, often on restriction, and graduating soon.
lizzie: cant have him, and that make me sad for her.
chels: is in an awful tangled up knot of emotional actions.
hannah: needs/wants to go to school soon.

God:

hes way cool but im not doing what i should be.
so i spend my time either thinking about what i need to do
or feeling guilty because i havent done it.

kyle:

he freaked me out tonight when he came to church. it was weird.

food: eh.

etc: tired.