answers.

telling my parents hasn't helped a thing.
its made my house a wreck to live in.
my parents are always arguing.
my mom blames my dad for everything.
i refuse to talk to them. they cant make me.
so he tries to punish me for not liking him.
then he feels bad, and gives my stuff back.
and then the whole cycle repeats.

this.
sucks.


i still feel the same way -- about myself.
my mind's not getting any better.
it's not "well with my soul"
i dont even know if i want to get better.
i dont think my mind can change.
so whats the point in trying.


physically, i feel... well..
i dont feel anything.
except huge.


im so sick
of not
controlling
anything.



the house needs to sell.
soon. now. yesterday.


my mind wont stop going.
i take allot of sleeping pills.


im looking into ywam for the summer.
they haven't posted 2008 trips though.


i haven't had caffeine since Frday.
therefore i have a headache.


i dont want pastor jason to leave.
i want to be selfish.


i refuse to cry.
i refuse to be vulnerable.
i want to be stubborn.


im sick of being a "good girl"
im sick of stereotypical people.
watson mckemie hates me.


kyle makes me smile.