I don't like going down to the altar. So I don't do it. I do my alone time w/ God privately. Not in front a bunch of people w/ mascara running all down my face. Except of course... those few select times when God was pulling me so hard I had to be there.
Tonight was not one of those times.
But I did pray for a friend... boy trouble. To tell you the truth, I did not want to pray for her... because I knew what was coming, and it's very hard for me to be sympathetic. Man, I just can't stand it and I wanna say "Well, [friend] if you just hadn't made-out w/ that other guy then [boyfriend] wouldn't be upset" but I can't say that kinda thing to a frail teenage girl who's having a mental breakdown?? Can I? I mean of course I can't. That would be inconsiderate. urgh. So after she basically poured her heart out into my white t-shirt, she sat there, waiting for advice, words of wisdom, a fortune cookie, anything that would offer her peace. So, I told her the truth. I said "[friend] you know I love you more than you'll ever know. (friend nods) But I really think you need to get out of all of these relationships, and find God, and yourself through him, before you have a steady boyfriend. Be okay by yourself first." Then of course she looked like a whipped puppy. "Have you prayed about it?" I ask, half expecting her answer.... "Well you know, a little..." "Then you know what you need to do" I said, hugging her. "Yeah, I guess I do." she said.
And that was the end, I felt/feel like such a hypocrite.. who am I to give advice?
no one.
[peace] - [kaylin]
Tonight was not one of those times.
But I did pray for a friend... boy trouble. To tell you the truth, I did not want to pray for her... because I knew what was coming, and it's very hard for me to be sympathetic. Man, I just can't stand it and I wanna say "Well, [friend] if you just hadn't made-out w/ that other guy then [boyfriend] wouldn't be upset" but I can't say that kinda thing to a frail teenage girl who's having a mental breakdown?? Can I? I mean of course I can't. That would be inconsiderate. urgh. So after she basically poured her heart out into my white t-shirt, she sat there, waiting for advice, words of wisdom, a fortune cookie, anything that would offer her peace. So, I told her the truth. I said "[friend] you know I love you more than you'll ever know. (friend nods) But I really think you need to get out of all of these relationships, and find God, and yourself through him, before you have a steady boyfriend. Be okay by yourself first." Then of course she looked like a whipped puppy. "Have you prayed about it?" I ask, half expecting her answer.... "Well you know, a little..." "Then you know what you need to do" I said, hugging her. "Yeah, I guess I do." she said.
And that was the end, I felt/feel like such a hypocrite.. who am I to give advice?
no one.
[peace] - [kaylin]
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