apparently its all my fault.

i cant do this thing anymore...
whatever it is.
i wish i knew what i was doing wrong...
so i could fix it.
but honestly i dont.
and im sorry.

im sorry for whatever i did.
im sorry im such a failure.
im sorry im having a pity party.
im sorry.

and i dont know what to do...

whenever i apologize.. i just get the same freaking answer.
"yeah whatever - go to your room"
and if i'm just serving as a scapegoat.
then i guess ill just have to deal.

and pj...
im sorry for the sfx.
they've been such a bust.
and i know its my fault.
i'm the freakin example.

and michelle...
i'm sorry for being insensitive.
i didn't even think about it..
and i know we kinda joked around...
but im sorry.



and i'm sorry for cutting myself and lying.
even though i know you can see right through me.





oh, and yeah - im sorry for breaking the podium.

i'll write more later...
i feel_ empty.