left behind.

i feel bad for all the friends i'm leaving behind
- verity, bekka, and alexandra mostly...
we started out at the same weight - same height - same age.

verity: 5'6'' 84.7lbs pic. pic.
alex: 5'6'' 110lbs pic.
bekka: 5'6'' ??lbs pic. pic.

and then theres me, who's floated in and out of xanga seamlessly.
always being able to locate my friends,
and them always there to welcome me back.


i feel bad for them.. mainly Verity, she worries me, she's got a potassium deficiency, and they want hospitalize her... and then bekka, who's liver is failing, and she's trying to cope with iop.

alex, she's more like me, athletic, and knows when to stop, knows when enough is enough, she got to 105, and now she's pretty stable at 110... she lives in AL... but she doesn't know i know. lol

but me and bekka are closest, she always hated it when i came back... hated it for me, but knew its was my decision, she supported me, stayed up late and talked to me. etc... i love that chick. :)

now, -- it's true, that these people i'm talking about, might not even exist... but on the other hand, i've read enough, and over the years gotten to know them. so to me, they do exist. and they're hurting, in pain... reaching out for something they can't find.



i feel_ hmmm...?