opus 444

to take a break from the story

i've been getting hit on more than normal

i don't like it, i am not an object, i dont like boys

this is my blog

i don't need to feel like i'm being boisterous, prideful, full of myself, or whatever... i'm not the prettiest girl on the street, i don't dress like a slut... i don't understand. im a cute kid.. i know this.. but i just, i don't know what's happening here. i feel like im in heat.
and im attracting dogs. 

but why?

lolly says that i'm just one of those cute girls... the one's that aren't uniquely pretty. she says that guys like me because im likable. i dont want to be likable. i dont want to be average. i want to be someone that is different, that attracts different people, unique people. lolly... lolly is one those people, she is different, and you can tell. she is beautiful, but in a different way. in a simple complex way.

i dont know what's wrong with me.

i haven't changed anything about myself

im not intentionally putting myself out there

i dont know what is happening to my world

but yeah, my world, its my world, its my life 

i can say no.. i've had to say no a lot.. 

im not used to having to say no

not used to these boys

i dont know